My Boy...

I loved my boy, the world could see
I did not know what was to be
He laughed, he played, he grew so strong
I could not know what would go wrong
God trusted me to do him right...
Yet I did not hear his pleading plight...
I failed my son...can you not see?
I do not want my life to be...
Without my boy it seems so wrong...
For my life to continue on...
He was so special...I know that, 
but does the world know thats a fact?
He had three siblings that he loved dear...
God, let them know that he is always near?
He visits me in my memories...
I see his ghost...
Oh!  I can see!
A mother's love is so very strong!
How can it turn out so damn wrong?!
I miss my boy more than words can say...
The pain gets worse with every day...
I do not understand this, God...
Please dont let this continue on...
Let Sarah know you loved her dear...
And that no other ever came near
She was the one, God told you so...
She always held your very soul...
Let those you touched, be forever changed...
My "Main Man" always you will remain...